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10 September 2008 @ 08:48 pm
We live and we learn to take
One step at a time
There's no need to rush
It's like learning to fly
Or falling in love


i'm fine now, thank you everyone for your concern (: it's been a week! had 2 lab sessions today. ultimate B.O.R.E.D.O.M. esp the ppda one. i got so fed-up i refused to do the reduction with zinc test for nitro compounds. and i conclude that i suck at doing QA. totally. i dun observe the right results. urghhh. not a good day at all. i feel so inadequate all of a sudden. as compared to the rest.

It's gonna happen and it's
Supposed to happen that we
Find the reasons why
One step at a time

hall life's been peaceful and quiet these days. i'm actually missing IBG! it's when i can see most of my blockmates and interact with them. sigh. all my neighbours are not around ): wei li went for tuition, karen not in and cheryl went clubbing. only wenyuan and i are in. my turn to be lonely today ):

You believe and you doubt
You're confused, you got it all figured out
Everything that you always wished for
Could be yours, should be yours, would be yours
If they only knew
 
i'm gonna watch proposal daisakusen later after doing the respiratory ppt with mag. it's about the only thing that can keep me awake. some guys are not as brave as i thought they ought to be. no one will ever get to turn back time like how ken did so please do not live to regret your decision (or indecision, for that matter of fact).

When you can't wait any longer
But there's no end in sight
when you need to find the strength
It's the faith that makes you stronger
The only way you get there
Is one step at a time
 
 
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03 September 2008 @ 07:26 pm
i am home on a wednesday!

while it may sound too optimistic, i kinda think that my vomiting/gastric episode is actually a blessing in disguise, because i get to stay home for 1.5 days! i'm too homesick for my own good. anything that validates homestay (apart from weekend-break) is good, seriously.

nonetheless, i had experienced, by far, the most excruciating pain in my entire life yesterday. for the record, i have not vomited this many times (SEVEN) before. even the doc who attended to me at A & E gave me the 'omg-so-many-times' look. and i could remember the exact details of each explusion (when, where, what, how). i think i should spare you all from the gruesome descriptions, hahahaha. but vomiting is not the worse end of the deal. i somehow developed gastritis along the way and henceforth experienced the greatest physical pain, ever. now i can finally empathize with people who suffer from gastric pain...i will never ever make myself go without food when i feel the slightest tinge of hunger pang. not that i did this time around. i started vomiting even before i had breakfast so my stomach was severely deprived of any food substance from morning onwards.

i called mum only when i went to nuh...didn't really want her to worry. thought i could call her after i'm feeling better. as it turned out, i was not feeling any better until i reached home lol. couldn't hold my emotions any longer when i talked to her. i just cried and cried. feeling sick and vulnerable, without family around and all. whenever i'm sick mum is always around to bring me to the doc. this is probably the first time she was not by my side. makes me wonder how i am gonna survive overseas if i ever have to. oh, and the funny thing is, both my mum and bro had the same symptoms yesterday morning. they had just gotten back from the doc when i called home. we were thinking that dad passed the infection to us. my dad is some mighty person with strong immune system la. he din have to take medicine at all. i'm probably the one with the worst immune system. how come i dun get my dad's genes in this aspect ):

this is my 2nd A & E stay in less than 3 months...oh my gosh. i pray that i would not end up there again because 1. it's very expensive 2. i hate waiting at every stop and most importantly i want to be strong and healthyyyyy.

oh, and i swear that the surest, quickest way to lose weight is to vomit everything you have in your stomach. in less than 1 day i dropped 2 kg. not that i'm damn happy about it la.

i missed school today and will have to do make-up for practicals. urghhhh. why can't we just finish all the stupid pracs in one day and get them over and done with. sucksss.

i must not forget to thank pingsiew for her help yesterday! she accompanied me all the way from 9 plus till 5...thank you so so much dear! sorry to have made u miss lessons and wait for me at A & E for so long...thanks for all the things you have done for me i really really appreciate it! <33333 and not forgetting val, jiahui and weepin! they came to visit me after lessons...so sweet of you guys! thank you for helping me in one way or another. and val please don't feel guilty! it's alright (: i'm fine now.

my pharmacy classmates are amongst the best lot of frens i can find (: be it a simple sms or an act of support they showed that they really care for my well-being. i'm really very touched. the same goes to my blockmates! i ought to feel lucky to be surrounded by caring people like them!

okay back to mugging PPDA now. promised myself to sleep before 11pm today. tata!



 
 
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17 August 2008 @ 12:42 pm
i bloody hate acne!!!

i thought i am just having pimple breakout but noooo the scars don't heal and the zits don't subside ): my worst skin problem so far. finally went to the doctor today to get doxycycline. side effect is stomach upset omg...

hmmm and i really must go to bed by 1.30am, latest. cannot afford to compromise on my resting time anymore. no fried foods too! must double up on greens and fruits!
 
 
13 August 2008 @ 10:30 am

okay so now school has officially started. how exciting...not. second day of school and i have borrowed 2 books from the science/medical library. it is so untypical of me! my first time reading academic texts borrowed from library. usually i can just survive on notes and tips from smart friends aka Chem God plus hard work on my side. come to think of it, i did NOT pass a single H3 test/exam with the exception of A lvl H3. HMMMMM. i definitely need to put in more effort than i ever did in j2. i hope with all my heart that the syllabus does not transgress the parameters of my intellectual ability. if not i'll just commit suicide and dieeee.

my comments page has become very stagnant ): i think it's cuz i hardly update my blog as much as i used to. i know commenting is lj-only oops i really should change my template soon. get a more cheery and kiddy one hahaha. and one that allows everyone to tag. so people, pls comment! even though there isn't much to comment on lol. 

these days i feel a sense of emptiness every morning when i wake up. it's like there's a void in me, waiting for something or someone to fill it. with what exactly, i am not sure. it's not a terrible feeling, but it is insidiously invading my core. i'm just waiting for the day i break down completely and see what's left of me. that day might not come but i can never be too sure. 

i really miss my family )): i think i can burst into tears now but i try keep them in because i don't want to appear as a wimp. and mainly because i'm willing myself to be strong and independent. despite my mum's incessant nagging i still love her a lotlotlotlot. and my brother and father too. sigh. im looking forward to weekends.

okay time to sign off cuz meeting with jiahui and other hall people to go holland v for rag celebratory lunch! woohoo~






 
 
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Current Ear-candy: some random music on wei li's radio
 
 
06 August 2008 @ 12:07 am

HAHAHA watched brainless but entertaining  videos on youtube just now. anw here's a quiz i koped from brenda's blog oops:

THREE NAMES YOU GO BY:
1. Xin Yi
2. Germaine
3. wxy

THREE SCREEN NAMES YOU HAVE HAD:
1. silver_sparkles_yi
2. xin_pisces89
3. whatever

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. Legs
2. Feet (hahaha i mean it)
3. My smile

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS YOU DON’T LIKE ABOUT YOURSELF:
1. My hopeless eyecircles
2. Skin tone maybe
3. I'm quite content,actually (:

THREE PARTS OF YOUR HERITAGE:
1. Chinese
2. Hainanese
3. Hokkien
(i don't have malay blood, thanks)

THREE THINGS THAT SCARE YOU:
1. Losing my loved ones
2. Having no aspirations
3. Lizards (SERIOUSLY)

THREE OF YOUR EVERYDAY ESSENTIALS:
1. Food
2. Sleep
3. More food

THREE THINGS YOU ARE WEARING NOW:
1. Shorts
2. Tee shirt
3. Specsss

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE BANDS OR MUSICAL ARTISTS:
1. Alicia Keys
2. Leona Lewis
3. Jason Mraz

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE SONGS (RIGHT NOW):
1. Viva la vida
2. Closer
3. London Bridge

THREE THINGS YOU WANT IN A RELATIONSHIP:
1. Connection
2. Trust
3. Understanding

THREE PHYSICAL THINGS ABOUT THE PREFERRED SEX THAT APPEAL TO YOU:
1. Height
2. Looks
3. Smile

THREE OF YOUR FAVORITE HOBBIES:
1. Eating
2. Sleeping
3. Singing in the toilet

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO REALLY BADLY RIGHT NOW:
1. Sleep after getting my laundry out of the washer
2. Fast-forward time to tmr's rag prac
3. Eat something

THREE CAREERS YOU’RE CONSIDERING/YOU’VE CONSIDERED:
1. Pharmaceutical sales/marketing
2. Psychologist
3. Teacher

THREE PLACES YOU WANT TO GO ON VACATION:
1. Paris is THE LOVE <3
2. Maldives
3. Norway to witness midnight sun

THREE THINGS YOU WANT TO DO BEFORE YOU DIE:
1. Get married,have kids (necessarily in this order)
2. Witness midnight sun (i'm obsessed)
3. I think of more as i age

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I love shopping
2. I speak rather softly
3. I like wearing skirts

THREE WAYS THAT YOU ARE NOT STEREOTYPICALLY A GIRL:
1. I can be quite rational
2. I dislike it when people don't cut straight to the point
3. I'm stubborn

THREE PEOPLE THAT YOU WOULD LIKE TO SEE TAKE THIS QUIZ NOW
1. Steff
2. Wei Li
3. xiaolongbao

goodnight!

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03 August 2008 @ 01:29 am
howdy!

i'm currently using my stylo-milo fujitsu lifebook 6520u in sheares hall blk A! keke.

yeah i know i have not been blogging in a million years you would have thought i'd disappeared into thin air. but i didn't! merely busy with pharm rag and sheares camp (basically uni life). i'm not complaining, though (: i really really love our rag dance ALOT (because it's choreographed by our hot+hotter DICS) and i thoroughly enjoyed the company. 

MECHANICS! i don't usually post such hyper entries but i'm super hyper now dunno why. and i wanted so badly to sleep when we were at the rooftop. so anyway, mechanics ppl: weiting, weijiang, jiexiang, peiqi, huimin, pingsiew, yongsheng, huiyang, shuyi, immanuel, valerie, weeboon, siying, chun yim, shu li, alicia, ah cai and me! can't believe rag day is in 6 days' time...all our hard work and effort will pay off and it would be sth memorable (:

and of course we have the GUARDS! ALIENS! CYBORGS! and all the float ppl who worked day and night to make our magnificient float.shall not reveal too much haha let pictures speak for themselves. 

even though sheares float and dance totally blew my mind off ytd night (pwn all other halls!), i'm still glad that i joined pharm rag. no regrets whatsoever. i'm proud to be part of a 3-year-old-and-growing rag team! we might not have the experience but we have the will and creativity! yeah man. having said that, sheares' float is so damn professional i was awestruck by the scale of it. so was wei li. and all other Shearites. chief engineer is our block senior! damn cool. 

oh yeah, when wei li said that BB is hot i was damn shocked.but now i think he's quite humorous la. his facial expression esp. LOL. but anw i haven't really found anyone really cute yet. not yet la. ahahaha. or rather the one i thought was cute turned out to be rather...hmmm disappointing. lol. okay so huachi -.- 

still gotta check the stupid modules! i have no idea which module to take up. don't know whether to take with coursemates or take something i really like. INDECISION.SUCKS.

for the sake of my health i shall go to bed by 2.45am latest. tata!
 
 
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20 July 2008 @ 11:39 pm
i broke my record time for coming home late yesterday night. naturally my parents went through the roof because it was kinda way past my (ambiguous) curfew time. somehow they think that there is a correlation between coming home late and being led astray. i know they worry for my safety and me being a female it is all the more dangerous to be alone on the streets at night. but i just had to disagree on the going astray part. it's a matter of difference in beliefs. i guess they'll gradually understand. i thought there'll be spillover effect this morning but thank goodness mum was in a relatively good mood. lol.

and dark knight was totally worth the scolding and beauty sleep, lol. it's one of the best movies i've ever watched, even though it's albeit too fast paced for me. the joker is such an extreme character. no shades of gray. just pure, psychopathic evilness. he's the compelling reason to watch this film. everyone ought to support this swansong of heath ledger!

i never knew about the midnight sun phenomenon until i read the chinese papers today. 

"The midnight sun is a phenomenon occurring in latitudes north and nearby to the south of the Arctic Circle and south and nearby to the north of the Antarctic Circle where the sun remains visible at the local midnight. Given fair weather, the sun is visible for a continuous 24 hours, mostly north of the Arctic Circle and south of the Antarctic Circle. The number of days per year with potential midnight sun increases the further poleward one goes."

damn cool right! there is a difference between the day sun and the midnight sun. day sun is much brighter, blinding as white light. midnight sun is a warmer, more soothing shade of gold. i'd love to travel all the way to narvik, norway to witness midnight sun. 


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14 July 2008 @ 07:07 pm

went to the zoo with table partners (grace & huiqing) on friday. haven't been there for close to 10 years, i think. thank goodness for the clear and breezy weather. not too much of the sun, too (: met hq and her projectmates @ kfc for lunch. that was my 3rd consecutive fast food meal in 3 days :( it's no wonder my cough and sore throat are not healing as fast as i'd like them to. 


slacked at home during the weekend ;p was entirely unproductive but frankly i had no intentions of doing anything useful at all. i don't have many of these days left. haha. but the more time i spend alone the more i thought about things. mainly personal matters. it's good to recharge regularly but i figured that it's not healthy to coop myself up for more than 2 days. i tend to think too much beyond that. life's not that complicated, really. i should stop trying to rationalise everything because certain things just happen without rhyme or reason. and i don't have to be so hard on myself. be bold, move on. 

true to myself

oh yeah, i've worked out various ways to get to sheares hall from home. you must understand that i live in this ulu part of yishun (north end of s'pore) and sheares hall is located off heng mui keng terrace, which does not exist on my map (as in my very own map of familiar places) until a few days ago. haha. so, i took out the bus directory and conscientiously scrutinised the bus routes and devised my routes. the fastest way will take more than 1 hour, i believe. oh well, there's nothing else i can do. i'm alr gonna stay in hall so i'll save on a whole lot of travelling time every weekday. 

dance pracs this tues thurs and friday. shopping w zhi and ps on wed (: and possibly dinner with zlkp on fri. yipee!

 
 
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09 July 2008 @ 01:45 pm

blogging on steffie's laptop now. having sleepover at her house. they wanna eat @ kfc at bukit timah plaza but i dun wanna go...i'm extremely lazy =P ooops. 

played wii yesterday till 4am. i kept losing the spastic rabbid games. especially the laundry one. i scrubbed the clothes so hard that they became torn. i like the american football game though! had to use both thumbs to navigate my way cuz no strength. lol.

okay this hardly makes any sense at all. tata!

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05 July 2008 @ 12:18 pm
 howdy!

i'm back from pharm camp! my og is SEKMET! or is it shekmet? i like how my og mates are all enthusiastic, easygoing and unpretentious. it turned out to be quite fun, except that the first day was quite a disaster. having to travel from one end of the island to the other when you're feeling sick and lethargic can be rather depressing lol. and i had to injure myself in the knees on the very first night! i'm starting to accept that i'm more klutzy than most. no, i think it's my track shoes. they're a bit too high and unstable. hahaha. yeah, so i fell on the concrete path next to our chalet bus stop and scraped my knees majorly. at first i didn't feel the pain at all so i thought it wasn't anything serious. then i saw blood trickling down my right knee. kinda like how it was when i fell down at my sch carpark when i was pri 2. my first reaction everytime i injure myself is to laugh. i didn't cry at all =) so proud of myself hahaha. the seniors all said i was super calm. after that we had SP interaction in which we got to know our "secret pal" while being blindfolded. if i had to lose one of my five senses, the last one would be sense of sight. i really dislike  being blindfolded!!! 

my eyes started to get really swollen as my og was getting ready to bathe. the seniors didn't want to take risks so they brought me to CGH A&E at 2am in the morning. it was only the first day and i was sent to A&E -.- so dramatic. i think i got quite famous in the camp because i served as a precautionary reminder to other campers. one girl from another og told me her ogl talked about me a lot. goodness. oh, and i swear having your wound cleaned with antiseptic is 1000 times more painful than taking a tetanus jab. geez.

2nd day was beach games! was banned from most games because i could not afford to get my bandage wet. to tell the truth, i was very relieved and my injury was prob a blessing in disguise =p played dry games in the afternoon! we were all addicted to softball ^^ rly gotta thank my ogl and og mates who took care of me. in the night we had mass dance session, moving our bodies to the groove to "don't stop the music" by rihanna. pretty gd choreo by the dance ics, weiting n roman! 

okay 3rd and 4th day were basically preparation for war game and the war game itself. as usual, war game involved water bombs, water bombs and more water bombs! people got assaulted, structures got sabotaged and rules were broken but all in the name of pure fun and enjoyment. campfire on the 4th night...didn't exactly have enough time to rehearse properly and run through the whole performance but considering that we only had those few hours of discussion i reckon we did a decent job =) cheerios to our unofficial leader, dennis! he wrote the scripts all by himself, edited with some of our ideas. most of the credit should go to him. 

had to rush back home right after the 2nd round of performance, by the time i reached home it was 12ish. felt quite disoriented thus couldn't give the cabby the correct directions. or rather the faster way to get home. hahaha. i'm damn terrible with directions man. that is the main reason i have not pick up driving. i just can't envisage myself on the roads...at this point in time. don't want to end up killing passengers and pedestrians lol. i'm a driving disaster. 

went for spf social night yesterday. lg's coursemates are very hilarious and entertaining. i was enjoying myself being amused at their antics. esp his room mate, bong kok. he's the pres of their singles club. haha. they've got random presents for random ppl so he got one for being the most eligble bachelor. and one of them brought his mum as his date, so he got presents too. hahahaha. 

in other news, i accepted my sheares hall offer! i know i ought to be really happy that my app is successful but certain things are pulling me back...i don't know what to expect. plus the fact that wl is waiting for appeal results...i chose to stay hall largely because i'll have her company. and sheares because her cousin's there. now everything is coming to me at once i really need time to sort them out before i lose sight. one thing at a time.

matters i need to settle:

-medical checkup for matriculation 
-hall matters: this is the most mind-boggling one!
-rag and flag?

that's all, for now. pictures in next post!
 
 
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